Love is strange yet unforgiving. He pushes and pulls me like some one in love would do. But he is not in love with me, just some one else. Love is not an option, just something that comes and goes as it pleases. I don't know why I just do. Do you think I want to love some who doesn't love me or who I will never be with? No. In fact I don't even know if what I feel is really love I just assume, I feel like an idiot, so I must be in love. I hate love, I don't want to do it. If you ignore it, it can pass. I truly believe that but, only if you stay away. But of course you don't to stay away, you want to feel that love that torture in your life, it keeps you going keeps you thinking. For now I think I love you, how horrible is that?

Life moves you traps you keeps you. So stressed right now. Haven't been this stressed since I was trapped in a loveless mess. Everyday I feel you, love you, hate you. I try not to talk to you because I like you and I feel you do the same. On top of you I always have drama in my life. Not always big but always. It hurts that I want more of you but need less. Sometimes I wonder once I have you would I still want you. Just be mine already. I will stay away just because it's the right thing to do. Why do I think of you?

Why ask why?

DO I love you or am I just a fool? Sit and wonder
why, why do I sit here why do I wonder? Why
should I move off my seat. I think I do love you
and I know I'm a fool. I feel stupid just to wonder
about you. Why do I even want to be in your head?
Some times I imagine things that aren't there. Things
I want people to have but they really don't. I live inside
of my head always wanting what never was to begin with.
What if we are all just living in our own world made up by
movies and fake ideas of what people should be and what they
really are. Just a brain washed person like you are hoping for that
good person they created out their ass. I will always be there for you
even when I know you will never be there for me.

Push on, even if it takes you no where. Love life alone.